She trusts nobody.
That’s what made her strong for so long. Strong enough to stand alone, knowing there’s no one who knows her or understands perfectly.
But the hardest part is, when she begins to trust, it scares her too much and she just longs to flee away….
The intimate feeling of being trusted by one and being able to trust one…that feeling itself is perfect for her..and just as much she loves it, she fears it..
She is anxious about everyone she lets in..not because of their flaws but because she is just not ready to see whats ahead..better/worse. And the temptation practically kills her alive!
She keeps wishing on the stars that someday the veil of confusion will lift and everything will just fall into place.