I care too much of those who stay in my life, despite all my mistakes.
And if they let me down, usually I get annoyed, and maybe I might even ignore them for a while. But at the end of the day I end up worrying and forgiving.
I worry thinking maybe it was my fault to let them put me down. Or maybe they chose wrong to act in that manner. This is the dilemma; the worry.
I wonder why I forgive them, but I can’t help it. Maybe because forgiving gives peace to my mind, but still everyone else is saying I should ignore them forever! But no matter how much some people hurt me or criticize me, I still can’t be annoyed forever!
Maybe others will say that I’m too weak to hold my anger, but I think it was their choice to accuse me or let me down; and it’s my choice to forgive them. It’s not that I forget, but maybe it’s much easier when I have few people whom I must ignore.
But still I’m wondering….
The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is an attribute of the strong.